my new year began (glorious spring)

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it happened. as much as i sometimes doubted that the earth would continue it’s orbit long enough to get me here…it did. my new year began a few days ago, on March 21st. i turned 25 and spring arrived…finally. every winter a fear grips me as i look at the bare trees, the bare ground. it’s a completely ridiculous fear, but yet, there it is, every year. i am always afraid that maybe this is the way the world around me will stay…forever – that the trees will not bloom, the grass will not appear, the warmth will not return. there is a simple lesson in that, of course. nature cannot be stopped…neither can human nature. we transform, we grow, we change, we…survive. no matter how terrible it seems, we can emerge. unfortunately, unlike nature, some of us choose to actually have a choice in the matter. from the most extreme choice of suicide to the other more subtle choice to stay frozen in an old life, in a rut…we can stop our seasons. we can halt our spring in it’s tracks. upheaval is the name of the game. it’s not always pleasant…but it is glorious in the end.

so, i have begun. i welcome my spring with open arms and a glad heart. though there has been much that has happened to dampen my spirits, my inner nature eventually takes over and pushes me forward…or up…through the soil, dirt, and leaves that life tends to pile on us over time. i doubt i will go into much detail in this little blog (who needs that, right?), but, suffice to say i have undergone some trials having to do with love, friendship, and the loss of it. i am sure there will be musings on the subject, maybe a diatribe or two…haven’t quite decided. there have also been incredible gains…i have reconnected with fabulous old friends, made some spectacular new ones and my “sisterhood” is flourishing (something i once thought was unnecessary…yes…i was one of “those girls”).

that’s a short update…my life is quite busy in the culinary and restaurant world…but, within my new year (and through a short, but much needed vacation to chicago) i have found renewed energy…and….will hopefully be able to write more ramblings.

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